Simply because I love you so…
Your breathing has become my source of music
The rhythm of your heartbeat echoes my existence in life
Your scent and presence keeps lingering in my mind
Security, warmth and comfort is how I feel when you are around
.
I love to be in your arms
Lying next to you
Feeling loved and wanted
I love to hear your monotonous voice
Whether lecturing or nagging me
It just shows how much I mean to you
Your occasional signs of affections
Makes me feel so comforted
Silly as it may sound,
You have made me feel like a little girl once again
.
Being a part of your life
Knowing I hold that little place in your heart
I tried to hide the key from you
Yet you managed to open the door to mine
Letting you in, allowing you to stir the feelings that I have for you
You are now part of my life
Securing that forbidden space in my once jaded heart
.
My love for you grew in time
As you guided me along life
I fell for you against my own free will
My resistance wavered and shattered
As we spent more time together
You slowly unpeel my layers of protection
Leaving me bare-naked
Making me feel vulnerable once again
Then you gave me something special
By offering your shade to me
.
I told myself over and over again
It didn’t matter at all
Whether who is in your arms
As long as you had yours around mine every now and then
I didn’t have expectations then
I shouldn’t have expectations now
.
Suddenly it starts to hurt so bad
When it begins to matter to me
I stopped in my tracks and ponder
If your heart is with me when we are together
My breathing became irregular
When I wonder where your mind is lingering towards
What or who your mind is thinking of
My heartbeat pounding even harder
As if I am so afraid to know the truth if I ever asked
.
I don’t like guessing games
Neither do I like games that involve feelings
I didn’t mind being the second
Yet now the thought of it makes my heart ache
Why does it matter now
I can’t answer you
What do I want from this
All I can say is, just take the pain away from me
.
We used to say the way things are now
Works well for us both
To a certain extent, yes I must agree
Our personality and character clashes this I know
Yet when you made this statement just the other day
It seems like you are trying to put me in my rightful place
.
I am not asking for more
I only wished you were tactful with your words and your actions
Without knowing, you did things to hurt me bad
These are times when the pain was so unbearable
I have to choke my tears back
Before you notice them flowing down my cheeks
There’s no need for sweet-nothings
You didn’t need to offer your commitment
You have no right to do so
And I have no right to ask for
.
Who am I to you
What does the future holds for us
Does your future even have a place for me to stay
For how long will that be
You once told me this
For as long as you remain standing
I love to stay under your shade
But until I can silence my pain
I wonder how long I can remain
.
To lose the battle and win the war
Or to win the battle and lose the war
The constant fighting between my heart and my head
I would say my heart is overriding any rational thoughts
I have lost the war
I am weak I must admit, there is no denial on my part
I wish I can remain sound asleep, oblivious to my surroundings
Lying in your arms, safe and warm
Without much thought to what will be tomorrow
Taking one day at a time
Enjoying and relishing our moments together
.
Whether I am selfish or naive
The decision lies in you
For this to end, it will be yours to make before I will let go
Yes, I am here to stay
I can’t walk away
Simply because I love you so…
