My Roller-Coaster Ride

Somehow, I will pass this phase gradually
Somehow, I will cross these hurdles with strong determination
Somehow, I will be on the other side, no matter how far it seems
Somehow, I will survive these ordeals, because I will not admit defeat

Somewhere, there is light at the end
Somewhere, there is happiness in the air
Somewhere, there is peace within one’s self
Somewhere, there is hope for a better future

Someday, I will smile with tears in my eyes
Someday, I will laugh with true happiness in my voice
Someday, I might love again, with a guarded heart
Someday, I might trust once more, with open eyes

Today, tomorrow and the day after, I will become a stronger person
Today, tomorrow and the day after, I will be prepared for the battle ahead
Today, tomorrow and the day after, I will be armed with confidence and gain VICTORY…

2am, I’m still awake
I wonder why
Too many things on my mind

At age 24, going 25
My life seems to be in a mess
In which it’s so difficult to clear

Now in the midway of the crossroad I took
Faced with several what not’s
Only those who are close will know

Disappointed, not very
It’s too anticipated & to the script
Cause I am the director and the leading star of the show

Overwhelmed with uncertainties
No one can predict what lies beyond tomorrow
The ride is going to be a rough one to be on

Armed with nothing but my determination
Those who love me will follow me through
The obstacles ahead will prove to be naught but bumps

The world might have turned it’s back on me
The world might have deceive me with beautiful nothings
The world might have led me to a facade make believes
But I HAVE learnt the real, unfake truths of the world

To learn is a blessing
To regret is a baggage of unhappiness
To let go is a process
To grow up is an achievement

Literally, I will be alone on the road
Morally, I have support from closest friends and family
Emotionally, Physically, I have Maia
Blessfully I am not deserted by anyone

When you see the smile on my face
Can you see if it reaches my eyes
When you hear my laughter in the room
Can you hear if it is shallow
When you reach out and touch me
Can you feel if I am cold

My eyes were once filled with glittering happiness
My smile was once bright and true
My laughter had once filled the room with geninue joy
My body was once warm and alive

Now my eyes are clouded with uncried tears
Now my smile is a disguise for my deep aches and sadness
Now my laughter sounds like a sorrowful nightingale
Now my body is unfeeling and cold

One day I hope to be happy once more
One day I hope to smile truely to myself
One day I hope to laugh about my problems when it pass
One day I hope I will be filled with warmth and happiness

Maybe one day you’ll get to see the twinkle in my eyes that has gone away
Maybe one day you’ll discover the blissful smile on my face
Maybe one day you’ll hear the geniune laughter filling up the air
Maybe one day you’ll see me reborn as a new, happier person…